“I know God will not give me anything I can’t handle. I just wish that He didn’t trust me so much.” ~Blessed Mother Teresa
I’m not Catholic, but I love Mother Theresa. She was such a good holy woman, and it is wonderful to know, that even she felt challenged at times.
Take right now, in my life. My mom passed away yesterday morning. I should be rejoicing, as my faith tells me that she is no longer in pain, and is in the house of God! Also, with all my family, who have gone before her.
But I am feeling terribly sad. It’s almost like finishing your favorite book and knowing that you cannot go back and experience that first read ever again.
My relationship was not always easy with Mom, but I loved her so much, and my biggest fear is, she didn’t know how much I loved her.
Add to this the fact that I have just had my surgery and I feel just a little more than challenged. Especially since I cannot cry for my mother. That makes my eye and nose hurt so much. Well, crying must be set aside for another day.
I HAD to cook the Heavenly Jam today. I’d started the process yesterday, and I just had to finish today. Three batched done over an hour for each. Yeah, call me tired.
And lest we forget the spaghetti sauce. I had to do that too. It made enough for four meals.
But I want to make a request here and now. “Dear Lord, I am tired and aching and my heart is broken. Please find just a little time for me to rest. Thank you. Love, MB”