Many people don’t realize this, but I am really a FAT woman. I have chosen to go to Weight Watchers, but no matter what, I will always be a FAT woman. Here are 13 things I have come to know about my self over time.
- It started when I was going through puberty. Suddenly I got sort of chunky looking. Which I think is normal.
- But, my parents, who were both very obese kept telling me, I was going to be just like them.
- This terrified me.
- In order to please my boyfriend, I just plain stopped eating in my mid teens. Probably a light form of Anorexia.
- While pregnant I ate so healthfully for the babies.
- As soon as they were born, I went back to near starvation, to get my weight down.
- Then the accident happened and my daughter died.
- Do you realize that people bring food to the bereaved?
- Cookies, cakes, casseroles, breads!
- And I started to eat. And eat, and eat!
- At first I could handle it because I was also running at this time.
- But then I blew out my hip and blew up my body!
- Thankfully, I discovered Weight Watchers.
I will always be a FAT woman, but at least I am in remission now and can handle food, with the help and support of my Weight Watchers class. It’s still difficult and I would like to believe that I can eat all that I want, and it doesn’t matter, but the last 3 and a half years in Weight Watchers have been a real help. Much like AA.
In fact recently, I saw my mother and she told me that I would end up being just like her and I did not handle it well. I went out to Dunkin Donuts grabbed a coffee and a Blueberry Muffin (12 points). Not good.
The first thing I did when I got home, was go to a Weight Watchers Class. It’s my salvation!
Some people use alcohol, some people use drugs. I use food to self medicate when my world feels like it is closing in on me.
But when I look in the mirror I see that FAT girl, the one I will always be. At least now, she knows it is okay to get help!
That makes me smile!
Mothers can say the most hurtful things. I know. 🙁
I´m glad you didn´t let it get you too down. WW is a great program. I wish they had it here.
Hi Mom,
HOpe you are having a good day! I wanted to let you know–we are not 100% decided on the resort in St. Lucia yet. We have been looking at Anse Chastanet, but are considering Sandals and a few others. I also did my own pricing research last night, and found for at least Matt and my travel package that the “destinationweddings.com” group was putting quite a mark-up on it. This said, I think I am going to do all of the planning myself, and save us some money! 🙂 Matt is meeting me here at work tonight so we can go out for a nice dinner for his birthday! He has no idea I have purchased tickets to take him to SF next week. (He knows something is up, but he doesn’t know yet what that is!) HOpe you have a great day today! Love you lots!
Thank you for sharing your story. You’ve been through a lot but, it’s cool that you are taking care of yourself, eating well and turning things around. 🙂
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Mothers can be cruel sometimes can’t they? My mum is the same with comments that cut me to the bone, but I try to believe she does it with my best interests at heart. I am very overweight and have been from my late teens when I first went on the pill. A lot of fat went on when I first got married (all that FREEDOM to eat what I wanted!) but despite numerous diets and exercise programs I haven’t been very successful in losing it and keeping it off. I have accepted I will always be fat now, but I do try to eat healthily and do exercise when I can.
Thank you for sharing your story. It must be difficult to talk about the loss of your daughter and my heart goes out to you. Keep strong xx
I’m glad for you that you’ve found WW, and it helps. You sound like you’re healthier–physically and emotionally–than you think you are. Thanks for sharing.
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Grrrr…#4 makes me so mad…remember the picture I told you I found recently? You were so skinny in it. Feel free to delete the comment if you want. I know me and my big mouth are too much sometimes.
I am here for you 100%, I have your back! I love you unconditionally!!! Love YOU, Mel
I’m the same way. I own every size in my closet. I’ve learned to worry about other things since everyone has some thing.
Have a great day!
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I wouldn’t call you fat, you are the round very feminine type of women. Fat are those who have legs like towers need two chairs for there bottoms and breasts like blown up soccer balls hanging on their knees ! It’s very good that you pay attention to your body and keep yourself in a good shape, it’s also good for you when you look in the mirror and like yourself ! There are types of woman who look at food and are putting on weight, others eat like horses and are skinny minnies ! My mother was little and round and maybe the fat type, but she could never pretend that I would look like her because she was little and I am tall, but my father always tried to put me down, unfortunately for him he didn’t succeed, thanks to my grandma.