Mostly I don’t write about things that make me sad. I try really hard to think positive. It’s a challenge because I tend to be a half-empty glass kind of girl, But I strive to be a half-full kind of girl.
This all was something I struggled with recently, as an acquaintance of mine had seen an article in a newspaper about a horrific traffic accident that made her think of me. So, she wrote to me to remind me about it. Sending me the graphic article.
I’m sure it wasn’t her intention to hurt me like this. I’m sure that many people think that after 35 years you should be “over” the loss of your child?
But it did hit me very hard. You know, most days I get through and I do alright. Then I think of my little girl and the loss washes over me.
I really don’t need people reminding me of the horror I went through. It is never far from my mind.
I was also thinking of my Mom today. She has been gone quite a while now. Her passing was much easier for me because she was ready, we had wonderful loving words between us and although losing a parent is hard, it is more in the normal scheme of things.
Anyway, Mom was on my mind in a happy way, so I took out a bottle of her favorite perfume “Oleander” by Lily of Bermuda, and I put some on. All-day I have smelled Mom and it has made me smile.
Not all memories of our loved ones make us sad. They can be happy and full of love. Those are the ones I like to concentrate on.