Sometimes there are no words. Words that will bring comfort, and aid in the healing of a situation that one simply cannot fathom.
I remember when Katie passed away, people tried so hard to offer comforting words. Unfortunately, the most often used phrase was: “Oh, if that ever happened to me, I would not want to live!”
Well, you do not have much choice there, so somehow you wake up and get dressed and another day goes on. You with a broken heart, but very much alive.
The next phrase used was “Oh, I know just how you feel.” Ah, no. Not if you haven’t lost a child. For that is an area that I would not wish on anyone.
Well, my young friend’s six-month-old niece has passed away. She was a beautiful, happy, healthy baby, with the sweetest smile.
I feel like using the F-bomb here to express myself because I do know how the baby’s parents are feeling, and thus her Aunt. And my heart is breaking for them all.
My friend has two young children. This will be their first experience with losing a contemporary. They loved their baby cousin and the pictures of them holding her are now priceless.
Today I am praying for the entire family. I know they will make it because somehow you do, but I know that forever, in their hearts, there will be a piece missing.
After eating copious amounts of turkey, stuffing, and cranberry sauce, I think I am now turkied out! Tomorrow I plan to make a turkey soup. But I may very well freeze it because I am ready to move onto other foods.
Our day was a quiet one, and I spent time doing some online retail therapy. Christmas is coming fast and I want to be ready for it.
Jack watched an old classic movie, “Mutiny on the Bounty” and I pulled out my Christmas cards and started writing those out. If you would like one PM me your address and I will happily send you one.
I used to write a funny long letter, but frankly, 2020 is not a year I want to look back on. Aside from losing 60 pounds, that’s about all that happened in a positive light. No fun trips or vacations, no dinners out, and no socializing.
Mostly what I wish for in the next year is good health, much happiness, and joy in our lives once again!
As I sit here on Sunday morning, the temperature is a cold 29 degrees with mixed precipitation forecast for in the next 24 hours. Well, why the heck not? I mean right now it seems everything is going downhill, so why not the weather?
I was just watching our local news and I am sure that this will cause panic in the streets. They are telling people that shortages abound, and if you do not have your holiday foodstuffs now then you are up the creek.
About a month ago, I could see the writing on the wall. people were being careless with their masks, and I also saw groups at gatherings and knew it was not good.
I told my family and friends to buy extra canned food and boxed foods, and any paper products they might need. I myself would buy canned soups and vegetables, paper products, and cleaners each time I went. Today I feel like a genius!
I do not need another thing in order to make a Thanksgiving meal for Jack and myself.
On Monday I do plan to go to the recycling center to get rid of our trash and stop both at the Grocery Shop and at the Post Office. Then I am in until after the holiday unless important mail is awaiting us.
So, gentle readers, please wear your masks. Wash your hands often, and stay away from people. And remember, if you can’t have the exact meal you want for Thanksgiving, it’s okay. Better to eat meatloaf, then to be in the hospital for Christmas because you kept shopping for the perfect turkey.
There are times in our lives when it seems that there are only complications, illnesses, and problems around us. Some days seem eternally long. Like one is stuck on this merry go round with no way off.
Such has life been since earlier this year when the Covid came to call. In the beginning, not knowing too much about the virus I was scared to death. I remember clenching my teeth so tightly that my jaw ached, and made it difficult for me to eat a simple salad.
But as our numbers went down, and we understood more, I began to relax and my jaw stopped aching and although I still was conscientious wearing a mask and practicing good high gene, I did not live in fear.
About a week or so ago, our numbers began to soar. For my little old State of New Hampshire to have between 350-450 cases per day is dramatic. We are a small state. and my small town is registering higher rates too.
The Covid Virus is back and in so many ways it is worse than it was at the start.
As I drove home from my daughter’s home yesterday I looked at the cars around me. Massachusetts, Rhode Island, Connecticut plates abounded. I found myself being annoyed, as these people are only supposed to come if they Quarantine for 14 days here. And of course, when they return to their own States, they are supposed to quarantine there too. But as I pulled into The Outlet Mall I noted all the out of State cars and it made me both angry and paranoid.
I did my business there and pulled across to BJ’s and got gasoline. Then I hopped on the highway and went home.
I will be going into a lockdown here with Jack as long as our numbers are so high.
Life in the time of Covid. It’s odd you know. As our numbers start to climb, I’ve gone back into only going out when I absolutely have to. Today was one of those days. So I planned it out. Grocery, Post Office, home.
Many people are opting to stay home too. We had a dusting of snow in the morning, so many people just figured, what the heck and stayed in. I was able to get a few things I needed at the grocery store and then I was off to the Post Office.
I had a lot of mail. A lot! But what concerned me most was a letter from my insurance company. Basically, they said that if this was “Cosmetic” they will not cover it. Lucky for me they found one large tumor and two small ones! That should make them happy.
I truly detest my Insurance Company. They have never been there to help me. In fact, I have had the stress of practically begging for them to cover my care, despite the fact that I am covered. Very soon I will be looking for a new primary provider and I can tell my current provider to take a flying leap!
I must insert here that I love my current secondary insurer. They are so good and I never have a worry.
In the afternoon, I did a few little things, but not too much. For whatever reason, I was feeling tired.
I called my sister and my friend, Gail and we had great visits. That’s one thing I love about my cell phone! I can call and talk and talk and it costs nothing.
Dinner was once again leftovers, thus making my day end easily. Now we are both sitting here watching “Air Disasters” and sort of killing time until I go to bed.
Since there is so much happening around me I thought I would do an Autumn Thursday Thirteen. Here goes.
- It’s been a beautiful Autumn. The leaves were vivid and bright and glorious! Some years, not so much, others, like this year, lovely.
Chalk one good thing up for 2020!
- I had to go for pre-op work yesterday and a Covid test. I was a little nervous because I’d heard the Covid test is terrible. So, as I drove to Concord, and passed two McDonalds, and three Duncan Donuts, my old habits of eating the anxiety hit me. I wanted to call someone to talk me off the wall, but it was so early. So, I sat up tall, straightened my crown, and kept on driving!
- Of course, when I arrived at the Out-Patient Surgical Center, I walked into their lobby and what do I see? A Green Mountain Coffee stand with Cider-belly Donuts and treats! Once I checked in, I sat with my back toward the stand and soldiered on!
- On my way home…I stopped and had my hair done. After all, I will not be able to be around any chemicals after the surgery during my incision healing. I asked for shorter hair and got the cutest cut! Thank you so much, Becca!
- After that, I came home and made lunch. I cooked up several eggplants, ate a little, and then made an Eggplant Parmesan (WW Recipe).
Since I have three more eggplants, I plan to cook them up today and make a casserole of Eggplant Parmesan then cut into portions and freeze for future meals.
- Yesterday I woke up early, and I said: “Alexa what is the weather in Meredith, New Hampshire?” Well, Alexa said it was partly cloudy, with breaks.” Well, Alexa lied. It rained the entire day!
- I woke early today. I have a lot to do, and although I am isolating here at home, I would like to get caught up on laundry and change sheets, etc. The first load of laundry is already in the wash!
- What is it with all this pumpkin mania? This morning they did a story on the news about canned pumpkin shortages! Really? Really? I was just at the store the other day and I was able to buy several cans.
- How many of you decided that as we approach flu season it might be a good idea to stock up on a few things? In the last few weeks, I have stocked up on canned soups, vegetables, and pre-packaged potatoes. I have a freezer full of meat, chicken, turkey, and fish, and should the worst occur, we are prepared.
- Oh yes, I also bought the jumbo size toilet paper, paper towels, kleenex, and napkins. Needless to say, I have plenty of cleaning aids.
- I also just ordered a box of paper masks from the USA Company. So, we will be set to be able to cover up.
- I love the yarn I bought for my latest afghan.
In fact, I love it so much that once this one is done, I am going to make another with the same yarn for me!
- And lastly, my favorite Apple is back on our shelves! It is called Koru and it was originally from New Zealand, although there are places in the USA that now grow it. Oh, I cannot tell you how happy I am!
Today was the day that our big rain arrived. We have not had any measurable rain for some time, and right now we are hoping that the forecast of 2 inches of the wet stuff is true. Personally, I do not think it was.
I have planned Steak Fajitas for tonight’s dinner, but I did need some Fat Free Sour Cream and my low-calorie Wraps. I was amazed at how diet-friendly I can make these.
Again, the day yesterday was sunny and pretty and the ride to the store and back was a nice one, but there was something new to enjoy.
Amazon offered me 4 months of Amazon Prime Music for 99¢. I felt like I needed to try this, especially as I made the leap and ordered an Echo Show for my bedside.
The Echo will allow me to have a good size clock, one that resets automatically, one I can play music on, and even watch videos.
It wasn’t terribly expensive and I am looking forward to having it by my side. So often at night, I have trouble sleeping and the TV lights up the room. If I can just listen to soft music I think it will help.
Have a great Thursday everyone!
I wish, I could bottle weather like this. Cool in the 70’s with bright blue skies, no wind and sunshine that warms the soul.
I wish, that when you reach your goal on a diet, that your metabolism would magically change so that you could eat anything you wanted and never again gain weight!
I wish, that people didn’t age. I know it is wonderful to learn things as we go along in life and to gain wisdom, but why should the acquisition of wisdom come at the cost of your body.
I wish, that time didn’t rush by us so quickly on the days when the wonderful things are happening, and then seem to drag on, when your life is going to hell.
I wish, I wish, I wish…
Sometimes after a long week and several frustrating things occurring, something will happen that restores my faith in the human race.
On Monday I saw that there was a reimbursement check in my mailbox for me, for Arnie’s care. As you know, it never arrived, despite the Informed Delivery Photo that showed it was on its way.
On Friday there was no check again. Jack and I decided not to wait until Monday, but to call the Pharmaceutical Company and tell them what was happening.
I called them and I have to tell you that they couldn’t have been nicer to me. They asked all about Arnie and took down all my details. Then they opened our file and the Accountant stopped payment on the missing check and told me she would be issuing a new one today. By early next week, the new check will arrive and all will be well.
Well, that just ended my week so very nicely. I am going to be able to relax and not think about this all weekend. Yay!
I was thinking today about life. How each and every one of us has a very individual life, despite what we may share with family and friends.
I’ve had some moments, some times in my life, that I went through alone, with no one beside me. Be it a shopping trip, or a plane ride to see someone, or even going off to grocery shop, and stopping for a meal alone. Or even more challenging times.
The experiences are singular and we alone have the memories.
Some people might not like that idea. They’re very group-oriented. And yet, it is the sweetness of our individuality, that can actually enrich our relationships with other people.
I value my alone time. My quiet time. I like to read, or write, or maybe cook something wonderful. But it’s during this time that my soul’s internal batteries recharge.
I think I was 7 or 8 years old when I realized I really liked being off by myself. Back then it was perfectly fine for your kid to ride their bike all around town. And I did.
I rode to the local convenience store. Often getting bread, milk, and cigarettes for my mother. Then riding home. Sometimes I rode to the beach and sat on the jetties watching the ocean.
On some occasions I had company, but more often then not I was alone. And that was just fine.
Looking back I realize the importance of learning to be alone. I never realized it until I was well into my 50’s.
Love yourself. Be happy with yourself, and the world will be full of adventures. Alone or with those you love!