TBT: Anneliese & Arnie

I have had these two since before they were born. Their Mama Greta was huge when she was delivered of 5 healthy puppies. And from the moment they all drew breath, I knew that my life was blessed. I just didn’t realize how much.

Here they are at about 7 weeks old. Side by side as they have been from the very start.

Jan. 20 Anneliese and ArnieAnneliese on the left and Arnie on the right.

And here they are now. Still best friends and still side by side. On December 10th they will be 13 years old!

Arnie & AnnelieseArnie on the left and Anneliese on the right.

What a blessing it has been to have these two sweet pups in my life. How special it has been to have enjoyed every moment of their lives since before they drew their first breath!

And how comforting it has been to have Greta’s babies with me after she left for Rainbow Bridge.

Yes, I am so lucky to have these two very special puppy friends.

Anneliese & The Big Bang

Tuesday was kind of an odd day for me. I slept until the sun rose and although I tried to get back to sleep, I was wide awake.

I got the dogs, and after getting my jacket on (I finally found my winter coat in the front closet!) I took them out, hung up the bird feeders and by the time I came back in, the coffee was hot and brewed.

Jack has been sleeping incredible amounts, so I didn’t wait and at 8 o’clock I made my breakfast. Life was going on in a normal pattern.

It was much later in the day when I had finished eating my lunch I put my plate down for Anneliese to lick, and I started to move the tray table that my lunch had been on and Anneliese jumped back in terror and screamed a big doggy scream.

I felt terrible. I must have scared her because she can’t see the table well. Then Jack told me that he’d accidentally kicked his tray table last night in his sleep and knocked it down. It landed close to a deeply sleeping Anneliese.

My poor girl had PTSD!

I got her up in my lap. She was breathing heavily and shaking. I held her closely and talked to her but it took well over an hour to get her calmed down.

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I started to think about Anneliese then. She has new bumps here and there, I know her vision is almost nil as she doesn’t see things when I hold them closely in front of her.

She does come to me when I call her, and part of me feels she is happiest when she is on a leash Then she is attached to me.

I don’t like this at all you know. I see my little baby fading before my eyes and it makes me so sad.

April 26 011Baby Anneliese.

She was the baby I watched being born, who came out screaming. The last pup out when Greta had her first litter, and the one with the biggest mouth.

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Ha! She is very quiet now. She almost never barks or makes a fuss. But way back when, in 2006, she was full of spirit and the life of Greta’s first litter.

March 9 001Me and Anneliese. I think she was about 12 weeks old then.

All her sisters and Arnie were little sleepy heads. But this tiny little pup had so much spunk!

As I held her today I realized that all of these years that I have been her Mom, she always knew I would take care of her. And she has always come to me to be comforted.

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She is fine now (Tuesday Evening) and asleep in her bed. But I’ve realized that I really need to enjoy her as her days are coming to a close.

This & That

Tuesday found me racing all around. I had Anneliese to the local Vet, and that was a good visit. Anneliese does have an infection, but she also has problems in her ‘good’ eye which will require us to bring her to the Canine Ophthalmologist. This we will do today.

I had also found some lumps on Anneliese’s body and I was concerned. Once again, my wonderful Vet talked with me and I was able to accept the fact that at this time in Anneliese’s life, we are doing things to keep her comfortable.

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She is not gaining weight, despite the fact that I am feeding her twice a day, a little more than I was. She also gets treats whenever. She is living her best life now! With nothing held back for a rainy day.

It’s sort of funny that by being with my friend in her last days on this earth, she taught me how to accept the things that I cannot change, and to bring happiness to a situation, where one could get bogged down quite easily with the negative.

Anneliese has no idea that she is unwell. Yes, her eyes are a concern, and we will get her diagnosed and get her medication so that she feels no pain. I already walk her on a leash for the most part, but we also take her out and let her run in the yard. Yes, enjoying and living her best life.

I was talking with a woman at the Vet’s office today. She was asking about Anneliese and how long I had had her. I smiled and said, “All of her life.”

Dec 10 018Birth.

For the moment she drew breath, I was there loving her. I saw her eyes open, I saw her first steps, and I was there for her litter of puppies.

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Me with baby Anneliese. She was 3 months old.

How blessed I have been. Twelve and a half years. And if I am very lucky, I will have even more time with this very special little girl.

Anneliese’s Eye

I usually write Dackel Princess in the evening, the night before posting. But last night I was so upset and worried about Anneliese that I could not write. Her good eye seems to have a problem. And I am scared to death that she may lose that eye altogether.

This morning she really is no better and I will have to take her into the Vet and have the eye looked at. I will start locally and then bring her to the specialist if it is anything more than an infection. (Which I am pretty sure it is).

I just wonder at times, why this sweet little girl has had to meet so many challenges in her life. Somehow it just doesn’t seem fair to me.

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Please keep your fingers crossed and say a little prayer for Anneliese and her wellbeing.

The Friday Five

The Friday Five

It’s the first weekend in June and I am away and at the beach. But here are some things I have been thinking about as the week comes to a close.

  1. I needed to get Anneliese’s eye drops. My Veterinary Ophalmologist called in a prescription and I went to get it at the Pharmacy. The Technician announced that it was $140.00! Oh, my, sweet Mother of God! The Tech looked at me, with eyes that asked if I really wanted to spend that kind of money on a dog?
  2. I recalled we have a prescription card for that Pharmacy. I asked if this would be covered? She disappeared and came back a moment later with a smile on her face. “I love you,” I said. She laughed “You are really going to love me when you find out how much you saved”.
  3. The total for this very expensive eye drop was $40.00! We both laughed. And she smiled and told me that this had brightened her day.  Needless to say, it brightened mine!
  4. I got to the car, and with tears in my eyes, and I told Jack what had occurred. Anneliese is blind, pretty much in her left eye. But these drops help her right eye from becoming totally blind and keeps the pressure down.
  5. So as I look back to my humble hometown Pharmacy, I am grateful for their prescription plan and that it covered my little doggy’s eye drops!

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Have a great weekend everyone!

My Girl, Anneliese

Looking back, I recall the moment 12 and a half years ago, when, on a cold December morning, Greta had a caesarian section, and I watched as one baby and then the next was lifted from her womb. Their small sleepy bodies, just squirming in this new world.

And the last to emerge was this tiny, squealing baby puppy. From the moment she drew breath, she was feisty and funny and although the smallest in her litter, she was the puppy always ahead of the others.

That’s my Anneliese. Full of spunk and never giving up on anything. Enjoying life to the fullest.

So yesterday, when I got her pathology report on the tumor and teet they removed a week ago, my heart just broke into a million little pieces!

Anneliese has Stage 4 Breast Cancer. There was a lot, and they were not able to get it all.

Some of you recall that I managed Shubi’s rare illness (GME) by doing chemotherapy here at home. The drugs ravaged her body, and in the end, she had no quality of life.

So, I have decided to do palliative care for her during the remainder of her life.

She will go for more car rides, she will get that little piece of bacon she craves, and she will be spoiled rotten.

I’m not sure why all of this is happening to one sweet little doggy. The eyes, and now cancer. It just is not right!

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But she is loved deeply, and I will enjoy everything about her in the time we have left.

Anneliese’s Eyes

In the Harry Potter books and movies, during tough times for Harry, when he meets his parent’s friends, they almost all say the same thing.

“I would have known you anywhere, you have her eyes. You have your mother’s eyes.”

Lately, I have noticed that as Anneliese has aged, I look into her eyes, and I see Greta. Anneliese is so much like her mother in so many ways. She is spunky and feisty, and she is also not afraid of anything!

Greta was a wee bit more affectionate than Anneliese is, but Anneliese has her own way of showing her love for us, her owners.

Here is dearest Anneliese. Looking up at me with love in her eyes.

20190516_053000And here is her Mum, Greta, also looking at me. Oh my, how I miss this little pup. She was so devoted to me and I miss her constant presence.

20180516_111141So, when I look at Anneliese, and I see her mother staring back up at me, it is almost like Greta is soothing my broken heart. What a joy it is to see Greta in her daughter’s eyes.

Now I understand what JK Rowling meant when she wrote: “You have her eyes.” about Harry Potter and his mother Lily. It isn’t all about color or shape, rather it is about the soul and sweetness of the person, (or in this case my pup Greta and her daughter, Anneliese).

Life Through Anneliese’s Eyes

We drove down and had Anneliese to the Canine Ophthalmologist on Wednesday. I’d been hoping for good news, but in the end, it really was just okay news.

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Things have not gotten any worse, but they haven’t gotten any better either. In fact, the ulcer has not healed at all, and she actually had a new scratch on the eye.

Okay, I asked, I see that she is not moving around the way she once did. She is very careful and has begun to run into things.

He says her vision is like looking through dirty scratched plexiglass. In other words, she isn’t seeing much. The other eye is holding its own, so she has some vision, but not a lot.

So, my baby is slowly going blind. If she is lucky the process will be slow and she will not live to see the end of her sight.

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The good news is she is happy and healthy and well loved. She is comfortable in her home, knows her way around here and we are watchful so that she is safe.

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Always and forever, my sweet, sweet girl.

Thursday Thoughts

Well, they’re forecasting more snow. In some ways I guess I’m ready. Plenty of food, plenty of fuel for the generator, and plenty of dog food. So, on that front all is well.

Anneliese’s eye is so much better and I can tell she is actually feeling well. She is full of spunk and energy and this makes me happy to see.

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We have had one strange thing occur. Arnie and Anneliese have had their own beds since they were born. About two weeks ago Anneliese took possession of Arnie’s bed! No fighting or anything, she just took it over. And he let her!

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I’m reading another book on Queen Victoria and Prince Albert. This one, titled “We Two: Victoria and Albert: Rulers, Partners, Rivals” by Gillian Gill is much better written and gives dates and times of events, which has spurred me to look up historical events for clarity. I like that. This book is encouraging me to learn more.

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Anneliese’s Eye

Anneliese went to the Vets yesterday for a left eye recheck. I thought her eye looked better, and I was feeling encouraged. Well, I was wrong. Although much of the redness was gone, the ulcer was larger and deeper than it was. So, I made an appointment with the Canine Ophthalmologist for an appointment on Wednesday. Meanwhile, I am to keep Anneliese, quiet, comfortable and continue with her drops. But, darn it all, I thought we’d gotten to it just in time.

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A picture of Anneliese from two winters ago.

Two things could happen now. She may need surgery to clean the wound and debride the ulcer. Or she may need to have the eye removed. Crap!

I mean, really, whatever is best for Anneliese. I do not want her in pain. It’s not like she reads the newspaper, or does needlepoint. The loss of that eye, in the grand scheme of things, is not a big deal for her. And I will love her no matter what, but I just hate to think about what she will have to go through.

I’ve suspected for some time that she wasn’t seeing well out of that eye. We knew she had fluid on the cornea that was clouding her vision. And it is probably that low vision in the left eye, that resulted in the injury that led to her ulcer.

So now we wait and get through the next few days until we see Dr. Nick. He is an old family friend, and I know he will do all he can for my girl. Meanwhile, please pray for my pup and her eye.

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