I’m starting to get nervous about my appointment with the plastic surgical specialist on Wednesday. I know he is a nice man. A friend uses him as her doctor. I know he does good work on fixing faces after cancer surgery. Again, I have seen his work.
I think what worries me the most is that I will get in there and he will look at my face and tell me that there is nothing he can do and I will always look like this.
The stranger I see in the mirror!
It’s an odd feeling when you have something like this happen on your face. Inside you still feel like the same person, but then you catch site of yourself as you pass by a mirror or in a store window, or even when you are backing up your car.
The startling feeling inside causes you to catch your breath. To wonder who that stranger is.
I always thought that I never gave my face much thought. I never wore make-up and always felt that a smile was my best feature. A window to my soul.
Had I lost all my teeth I could always get dentures, but the scars of the surgery have made me more than aware of the fact, (that I am slowly coming to terms with), that my best days (face wise) are behind me.
Oh I hope so much that this doctor looks at me and says he can make me at least pretty. Someone who can walk around in the world, without people staring with a startled look at me.
It happened again today as I shopped. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t. I smiled and kept walking. I wonder, what do these people think? How can they be so cruel?
My one favor to ask of all of you out there, if you see someone like me walking around, smile at them! You will simply make their day!!!
I will smile with my whole heart so it warms them with love! I am saying a prayer that all goes well tomorrow. I am sure the doctor can make you beautiful and very close to what you were before. Love YOU, Mel
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I think people don’t want to be cruel, it’s just the fact that somebody looks different, just as if you were bald. In the last pictures you don’t looks bad, I am sure he can fix it without problem and you will get a pretty nose ! Certainly not one like poor Michael Jackson had 😉 ! Continue to be brave !
You know I don’t usually write you here, but I have to say this: Maribeth, you are one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever had the pleasure to meet (albeit online only), because you’re beautiful inside and out…please, don’t ever let anyone make you feel any different! <3 As Gattina said, sometimes people just look at someone looking different…just like they would stare at Angelina Jolie, or something! 😉 Always walk with your head high and your smile on your face, knowing that you’re beautiful and very much loved!!! Hugs!
I think, that when people see a person with scars, (especially on a face), they don’t mean to be cruel… for me, I will always smile/nod my head (to say g’day) or something along the way, and walk off wondering what had happened to them… I would stop and ask, but I am fearful it would be difficult for the person, so I don’t…
You are a strong woman, and I am sure everything will turn out right after your consult!!
Hang in the kiddo! 🙂