Maribeth At Three

Growing up I was pretty much of a Tom-boy. I loved to climb trees, ride bikes, play in the dirt with Tonka Trucks and run around our neighborhood like a little street urchin.

I remember the day my mother had enough of trying to keep my hair snarl free, and she took her sheers and chopped off my hair into a very short pixie cut! (See, I was ahead of my time!)

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But Grandma and Dad both didn’t like it, and so my hair was left to grow out.

Just before my fourth birthday, I was supposed to be a flower girl in a wedding, instead I got appendicitis! I was rushed to Falmouth Hospital and operated on.

I remember waking up in the night with terrible stomach pain! I made my way into my parent’s bedroom and I remember being laid on their bed. My legs were tight to my chest. When Dad tried to pull them down, they snapped up so fast I think I might even have hit him!

Off we drove to the hospital and my Dad drove the wrong way and ended up going to the Community Theater! Eventually we made it, and Dr. Wessling removed my appendix.

All I remember about all of that was, he was nice and the ether smelled terrible!

I remember looking through the bars of my hospital cot to watch “Captain Kangaroo” and “Bozo the Clown”. I think I was in the hospital for a week.

My sister was not allowed to come up. She was beside herself with worry! So, my parents thought it was wrong to keep us apart and they snuck her up to pediatrics so Melodie could see me.

I was given all sorts of presents while I was in the hospital. I think Digger the Dog was my favorite.

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The only problem was, that by the time my birthday rolled around, I’d gotten all the gifts.

I remember coming home and going up the stairs to my room when I slipped on the steps and fell. I cried out to my mother, “Oh no! I’m bleeding!”

My poor mother came running, thinking my stitches had ruptured, only to find I had cut my finger!

Somehow Mom managed to make a party for my birthday a few weeks later in November. And magically, there were presents for me too.

All this from the earliest memories in my mind. I do admit to fact checking one part, but everything else was accurate.

Amazing what a three and a half year old can remember!

Family Recovery

It’s nice to have Jack home, where I can care for him, feed him and watch over him. Add to that, the fact that I no longer am driving two and a half hours a day, and we just about have a perfect situation.

Jack is sleeping quite a bit. I think this is a good thing, as his body needs a chance to fight the infection that he still has, as well as get over the surgery he had.

I would think that the body reacts badly when it loses part of itself. Even though Jack feels nothing in his feet, no pain, due to his Diabetic Peripheral Neuropathy, I imagine that the body itself knows that something was done.

I am Jack’s chief nurse. Once a day I clean the toe-less area and bandage it up. The first time I saw it, I was shocked. It looked odd to see his foot with no big toe. But now I am used to it, and I think once it is healed, well, it will be rather beautiful! After all, it looks far better than the infected toe that they removed.

I’m insistent that he eat three meals a day. Even if they are small ones. This means, I also eat three meals a day, which is good for me. Both of us have little to no appetite, and have lost weight.

I have been joking with Jack, telling him we should take that Princess Cruise to Hawaii in the Autumn. It’s 15 days. From Los Angeles, four days to Hawaii. Then four days cruising around the Islands, then four days to Mexico, and one day back to LA. Jack says that 8 Sea Days would be terrible! What would we do?

Hmmm! Well, we would sleep late. We would lie in the sun and swim in the pool. We would eat lovely meals. We would drink champagne. We would see a different act in the theater every night. And for those 15 days, we would be alone! Quiet, loving and alone.

He is not convinced! But I am still working on him.

Arnie is intrigued with the tennis balls on Jack’s walker. Arnie loves to chew and destroy tennis balls and we actually had to spray on bitter apple to keep Arnie from eating them. Now Arnie lies under the walker, guarding it!

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Have a wonderful Sunday!

A Saturday To Remember

This past Saturday was a busy and wonderful one! It started on Saturday morning, when I left early to drive to Savannah’s dance recital. I stopped at the Outlet Mall in the rare possibility that I might find a pair of jeans. You know right up there next to the horror of trying on a bathing suit, is trying on jeans!

I went to Talbot’s and tried on a pair of jeans and a shirt and both fit like they’d been made for me! Jeans! I could not believe it! And they were a smaller size too! One thing is for sure, these darn antibiotics have robbed me of an appetite and the weight has fallen off.

Once I was happily back in my car, I again headed South. As I drove along, I passed several speed traps (I never worry about them because I am a Granny driver!), and eventually I pulled off to get a bouquet of flowers and some thing to drink for me. I found some lovely purple carnations, white roses and baby’s breath for Savannah. After all, every Prima Ballerina must have her bouquet after the Recital.

I almost never drive into a city unless I know it well, but on Saturday I had to drive into Lowell, Massachusetts. It’s currently full of construction zones and this made it pretty easy to take a wrong turn. And I did.

I should have stayed going forward, but I turned left. Ugh! Well I drove a little further and then “banged a U-ee” In other words, I made a U-turn and corrected my error. Of course, I got beeped at, but not too bad, really.

Then I arrived at the Recital. I met up with my daughter, Mandy, and Matt and his parents and my former husband, Bob. We all waited for the doors to open and then we gratefully took our seats inside, out of the heat!

The show began, and a few numbers passed, and then…there she was, our Savannah. This year, Savi wasn’t nervous at all. She knew what she should be doing and she did it with sass, pizzazz and so much happiness! I sat watching with happy tears streaming down my face. She was marvelous!!!

After Savi was done with her first number the children were led to the balcony, where they could watch the show. I happened to catch a glimpse of her watching the show and my heart swelled. My beautiful, sweet, talented, loving, granddaughter. Oh, how I adore her!

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In a bit, Savannah’s class was up on stage again and they performed one more routine.  Again, I felt such love and joy.

The Recital ended with a big balloon drop and the kids were thrilled. Mandy went to get Savi and I waited outside with Matt and Bob. Then there she was, running toward me, talking a mile a minute and waving two of her balloons in the air. Mandy took one of them so I could give Savi her flowers. We stood talking for a bit before I kissed my girls and said good-bye.

On my way out of Lowell, Massachusetts, I was cut off by a small car, and the girl inside flipped me off. Okay, a trip into the city of Lowell with one false turn, one honking of the horn, and one finger flip off, is actually not bad really! After all, it is a larger city than I am used to!

Once back on the Highway, I drove along with the heavy traffic until I reached the grocery store, and loaded up on food, and gassed up the car before hitting the road again and heading home.

I got here to find Jack searching for Lili. I asked when he had last seen her? He answered about an hour ago. I clicked  the remote for the garage and…Lili came waltzing out! Poor baby had been locked up in there for a while. Needless to say, she was very happy to see me!

After having a small bite of dinner, I headed to bed, where I fell instantly asleep! The end of a truly great day!

I’m Cooking Again!

In the last few days I have felt better than I have in a while. The effects of the antibiotics have not been so bad, and not only have I been able to eat, but I have felt like cooking too. And baking.

A friend of mine is also sick right now, so I bake double batches of things like Snickerdoodle and Chocolate Chip Cookies. Then both households can enjoy a little something special.

However, my cooking desire has also extended to things like meatloaf, roast beef, a roasted leg of lamb. All of these things provided meals for several days and I enjoyed making each and every one of them.

Fresh corn on the cob is now available in our stores. Usually the corn starts coming from Florida in April, then Georgia, and South Carolina in May and now, I think it is coming out of North Carolina. All I know is, that from now until September, we will be eating a lot of corn.

We also have had a lot of strawberries coming in from California. Oh, how we both love those! Last night we put on an old movie, “Uncle Buck” and sat watching and laughing, while eating Strawberry Shortcake!

Today is a no cooking day. What does this mean? It means I have enough leftover food, so that I don’t need to cook any new food!

All of this makes me happy. Happy to be feeling better, and also happy that I can cook again.

The Pillow Queen

Those of you who know me well, know that one of the things I am really picky about is my pillow. For years I have been searching for just the right pillow. One that supported my head and neck, without being too soft or too hard.

I have spent a fortune over the years and tried every pillow known to man. However, after my cervical spine surgery, it became imperative to find one that supported my neck. I tried for months to find a pillow, a position in bed, anything that would give me some relief.

Finally, I did a search on Amazon.com for Cervical Pillows, and after seeing several that were highly recommended, I began to search for more information on the Internet.

I found the D-Core Cervical Pillow, Standard, Firm. Now this sounds a bit crazy, right, and the pillow actually looks a little bizarre, but my goodness, since I’ve gotten it, I sleep so much better and wake with little or no neck pain at all.

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Each morning  I am thankful for this weirdly shaped pillow that supports my neck and face, and puts my head smack dab in the middle.

Could it be that the Pillow Queen has finally found the magic one? I sure hope so. I also hope that the pillow lasts for a while.

That would be perfection!

13 Steps

Yesterday I needed to do our laundry. No matter what, we somehow have to do this at least once a week. In the past this hasn’t been a big deal, but since I have gotten home from the hospital those 13 steps down and 13 steps back up, just did me in.

Yesterday, I had three loads to do, and as I went down stairs and back up, and then down again, I noticed that it was easier to do those stairs, both ways. And this evening, instead of feeling tired, I feel good!

Could this be the turning point in my recovery? I am thinking that it is! I know this means a few things. It means I need to keep working hard. Exercising and making simple everyday tasks work to help me get stronger.

Time to fold the clothes!

Happy To Be Home

Yesterday the sun shined bright, the skies were blue and our temperatures climbed to well over 80! We managed to keep the house a toasty 79, but I told Hubby that we will have to get the window air conditioners in soon.

But yesterday gave me so much hope and filled me with happiness. My Physical Therapy started and one of the things I did was walk in my yard and 1/3 of the way up my driveway. I know that doesn’t seem like much, but trust me, it is.

She also gave me exercises to do three times a day. Slowly, but surely, I will get back into shape. I know it!

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Home, where grandchildren visit!

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Today is laundry day, which in turn is also exercise day. There are 13 steps down to our basement and thirteen steps up. I have three loads of laundry and so all that stair climbing will be a very good thing.

Have I said how wonderful it is to be home? Home with my puppies and Hubby. home where I can watch the birds and my eagles, and enjoy the melting snow! Home, with my own bed and soft comfy pillow!

Yes, today I feel so very thankful!

Happy Twenty Ninth Anniversary

Today Hubby and I celebrate our 29th wedding anniversary. It’s funny, after all this time, it just feels like we have always been with each other. Through thick or thin, good or bad, sickness and health, we’ve somehow stuck it out.

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Twentynine years ago, we married in my hometown of Falmouth, Massachusetts. It was a bright sunny day, with just a trace of a nip in the cool wind.

It was a nice wedding, and little did I realize then, that when I said I do, time would pass so quickly and here we would be, 29 years later, still sharing our life and our love. Time flies!

Lucky Me!

I’m pleased to announce, that I have cooked the last two suppers. Both came out well, and although I was exhausted by the end of the meal, I was filled with happiness and accomplishment at having gotten that done!

It’s quite hard to do nothing for seven weeks. And out of those seven weeks, 17 of those days I spent in the hospital and then when home, in bed. I’ve lost 28 pounds, but I do not recommend this as a means of weight loss.

You pay a terribly high price for that. Your muscles sort of turn to jelly, and your stamina disappears.

Yesterday I did go out, kind of did too much, and then oddly enough suffered from my first ever case of insomnia. You would think I would have fallen instantly asleep, but no, it just didn’t happen. What do you do when you have insomnia?

I decided today that I will do little jobs around the house, but take things easily. I plan to pay a few bills, get a few things ready for snail mail, and perhaps watch a little TV. I have a new show I am enjoying. “Dr. Jeff, Rocky Mountain Vet”. As the title explains, it is all about a Veterinarian in Colorado. A true show, with real life or death stories about the animals that Dr. Jeff and his staff treat. It’s on Animal Planet!

I know I am repeating myself, But I am ever so grateful for making it through this storm of poor health. I truly feel lucky!

The New Normal

I’m home, and I have started oral antibiotics. It will be so for 2-3 months, to make sure that the infection does not come back. Every 12 hours, a pill, with a full glass of water, and a small snack. The new normal.

This is totally okay. Trust me. Getting the PICC line out, getting off the super strong antibiotics and getting home, is a wonderful thing! And I am not complaining.

In fact I am joyous, and thrilled and I am embracing it all. How lucky I am to be regaining my health, my strength.

I am not going back to Boston. I am not going back to poor health and illness. I see this as a time when I can take control and regain my health all the way around!

Life! I chose life!