Off I Go…

I’m heading to Connecticut today. Mom has taken a turn for the worse and I want to be there. She has stopped eating and it seems her kidneys are shutting down. Although she has said all she needs is my sister, I’m thinking that this is probably not true any longer. I think she does, at least, need me to come and see her again, before she starts her journey to the other side.

Even if our mother doesn’t need me, I know my sister does, so I will be going down more to be with her than anything.

It seems very sad when you realize that when she is gone Mel and I, along with my cousins, (formerly known as the kids of our family), will be the senior members of the clan. All those beloved Aunts, Uncles and Grandparents, gone from this world. And soon, Mom.

On Monday I worked like mad on Laundry, cleaning and packing. Hubby will have to manage himself and the dogs. I hate leaving them, but it’s important that I go.

I’ll be keeping you all posted.

What I Did This Past Weekend

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Our host is Gattina. Come join us and tell us what YOU did this past weekend! After all, you never know when you will need an alibi!

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The last week I simply have not slept well. Thus, all weekend, it was much the same. Me crashing late at night and then up with the dogs at the stroke of 7 AM. Have I mentioned, I am not a morning person?

Coffee and quiet has been the saving grace. Except then Sunday morning I woke to a long, hard, thunderstorm! None of the dogs would venture out, not even Fritz, who will almost always go out.

But, let’s work our way back to Saturday.

I spent most of the day running errands, doing laundry, and cleaning the kitchen area. Why is it that I cannot ever seem to get it done? I feel like I am always cleaning or doing laundry. The cooking part, I love, so no complaints there.

Around three we got a call from our next door neighbors, for a last minute cookout. With Lamb, Spanakopita and salad. You would have to be crazy (or my cousin) to turn down a meal like that! We, naturally accepted!!!

Since I hate to arrive without something in hand, I quickly whipped up a gingerbread cake. It was a new mix I was trying and all I can say is ‘WOW’! It was a mix I’d gotten at the King Arthur Museum and shop and it was fantastic! I need to get a few more boxes of that to have on hand just for this sort of last minute cake! It took me 45 minutes and  at the end of the meal half of the sheet cake was gone!

Then, as we were cleaning up two families arrived with their kids. I think there were 5 kids, but 5 kids under the age of 10 made it feel like much more! It all made me smile.

The adults also were quite interesting. A man who owns a gym in Pensacola, FL and  Erik and Ellie Weihenmayer. Erik holds the record for being the first blind man to climb Mount Everest and Mount Ararat. He has written several books and has not allowed his blindness to limit the possibilities in his life. His amazing wife, is a sweet delightful woman, who treats Erik like anyone else. I found myself feeling awkward at one point when we said good-bye, and I wish I was so cool that I could be as terrific as his wife.

Their two kids were also delightful, and I was so please to become acquainted with their entire family!

You see, it made me realize that we are the only ones capable of ‘letting ourselves down’!

The night ended very late, and since we all know my brain goes to sleep at 9:30 PM, when we got in at 11 o’clock, I was totally wiped out.

I was up early due to the hard rain storm. Once again, Hubby slept in, and I kept the dogs quiet for a while.

After Hubby woke, we did breakfast and I started the laundry part of my day and the cleaning.

Now he is getting the nets ready for the cherry trees and I am continuing to work on meals, laundry and writing. The usual!

My cousins, Janet and Dave stopped by with both Rainbow and lake trout! Yay! It will be for dinner tonight and again in a few more days. I just love fresh fish!

The week ahead will be a busy one. Hubby will be staying home with the pups, while I drive down to see my sister and my mother. I’ll also be going to a baby shower for my nephew’s and niece in law’s twin boys. They were born on May 31 at 32 weeks and are both doing well.

Have a wonderful week!

Meetings

Here is the report on my meeting with DH Hospital.

I started the meeting with the Patient Relations Man by talking about all the positive experiences I have had there. I even explained that the other doctors involved with this cancer surgery were wonderful.

Then I told him about the lack of communication, being shocked when I woke up after the first surgery and seeing my ‘Klingon Nose’, the fact the surgeon went on vacation moving my second surgery back a week, the fact that when I had difficulty understanding what he had done, and then he did not want to see me for ‘several’ months, that I was very upset.

I told the Patient Relations Man how the Physicians Assistant had gone out of the room and then she came back and said that this was correct, he didn’t want to see me for ‘several’ months.I explained that I was furious that he didn’t take the time to talk to me that day.

I showed him the pictures. The ones taken on the first day after the forehead flap. Then I showed him the ones taken before this whole thing started. I explained that I will not be going back to their doctor. That I have gotten a second opinion, in Boston and will use the Boston doctor, Dr. P. and that the Dr. P. indicated that I should never have had the forehead flap!

I stressed how happy I have always been at DH Hospital. However, this doctor was not only poor with his people skills, but has scarred me for more than likely the rest of my life. I sure hope the new doctor can do something, but I am not expecting miracles.

I got the ‘sometimes life isn’t fair’ speech, (If this man only knew how well I know that life isn’t fair!) and a firm handshake, but no real satisfaction. He did keep two of the pictures ‘supposedly’ to send to the Board of Directors, but again, I don’t know if he meant that or not.

Hubby has encouraged me to write to the Board of Directors, and include a summary of this meeting, the pictures, and my experiences.

So now I am exhausted, and I have a headache! Time for a cup of tea!

Teeth & Noses

I finally was able to go to my dentist for my bi-annual cleaning and check up. No cavities, but a crack in one old filling. So, I go on Friday to have it worked on.

The only problem is, after they cleaned my teeth my face started to throb! I can only image what Friday will bring!

When I got back home, Hubby had errands he wanted to do, so I tagged along in order to buy the dogs canned food and other perishable items for us to have in the house.

Then, finding no other TV program on (but news) and wanting to fill the air with something positive, I grabbed my copy of “Mama Mia” popped it into the DVD player, and have it on. I just love the music!

Hubby is working on the trees now that the rain has stopped and it is dead calm. I told him to go ahead as I am not really hungry for dinner, so off he went on his tractor.

Gosh how he loves that thing! Best gift I have ever given him, I think!!!

Just three weeks and I will be going in for the next surgery.

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As much as I can hardly wait for this, I am also really nervous!

Deep breath! It will all be good!!!

What I Did This Past Weekend

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Our host is Gattina. Come join us and tell us what YOU did this past weekend! After all, you never know when you will need an alibi!

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Friday and Saturday’s posts pretty much fill you in on those days. Sunday, however, was a special day.

I woke at a nice time. Eight o’clock. Since it was Father’s Day, I made Hubby French Toast for his breakfast, before throwing on my clothes.

You see the morning news said the first half of the day would be nice, and then we would have rain.

My friend, Carolyn has a summer job as a Lake Host, so I wanted to take Greta out for a walk and go down for a visit.

Well, Greta is simply hysterical to watch during these outings! She struts her stuff as she walks, and she even lifts her back leg to wee!

When we got to the boat access she wanted a drink, and so I walked her down, but a wave came in and she jumped back a foot! She did this several times, with us laughing at her, before she realized that the lake wouldn’t get her!

On our way home we saw a cute little girl with her parents. Greta was so happy. But this adorable little child didn’t even want to pat Greta. She looked terrified! “I’m afraid of dogs”, she said. I tried to quietly tempt her, but she was truly afraid, and her parents did nothing to help her.

How sad!

I told her we would walk by again, and maybe next time she would feel a little braver. She smiled. I sure hope that is the case. I hate to see kids not have a relationship with an animal. It teaches them so much about love.

The day ended with the man who cuts the field behind our house slicing up our hose. It’s been so wet this year and sadly, he waited too long to cut, so with the hay at 6 feet his machine slid a bit and chopped up the hose.

Hubby is not amused!

Happy Monday!

My Hope…

I’m starting to get nervous about my appointment with the plastic surgical specialist on Wednesday. I know he is a nice man. A friend uses him as her doctor. I know he does good work on fixing faces after cancer surgery. Again, I have seen his work.

I think what worries me the most is that I will get in there and he will look at my face and tell me that there is nothing he can do and I will always look like this.

The stranger I see in the mirror!

It’s an odd feeling when you have something like this happen on your face. Inside you still feel like the same person, but then you catch site of yourself as you pass by a mirror or in a store window, or even when you are backing up your car.

The startling feeling inside causes you to catch your breath. To wonder who that stranger is.

I always thought that I never gave my face much thought. I never wore make-up and always felt that a smile was my best feature. A window to my soul.

Had I lost all my teeth I could always get dentures, but the scars of the surgery have made me more than aware of the fact, (that I am slowly coming to terms with), that my best days (face wise) are behind me.

Oh I hope so much that this doctor looks at me and says he can make me at least pretty. Someone who can walk around in the world, without people staring with a startled look at me.

It happened again today as I shopped. I wanted to cry, but I didn’t. I smiled and kept walking. I wonder, what do these people think? How can they be so cruel?

My one favor to ask of all of you out there, if you see someone like me walking around, smile at them! You will simply make their day!!!

What I Did This Past Weekend

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Our host is Gattina. Come join us and tell us what YOU did this past weekend! After all, you never know when you will need an alibi!

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The weekend was a strange one. A bit emotional with the departure of our camper (see yesterday’s post) and a lot of work, as I am washing things and either putting them away, storing them, or getting them ready for the recycling center.

The day started early for me on Sunday. I woke up feeling very groggy and stuffed up. My head also was not on a comfy pillow either. It was on…..Greta’s belly! And…she was snoring! It made me start to giggle, so I quietly got up and took the dogs out so Hubby could sleep.

I’ve been getting all my paperwork together for my second opinion with the plastic surgeon specialist on Wednesday. Mandy and I are going together. I’m glad she will be with me.

I saw that The Little River Band was going to be at our local venue “The Flying Monkey”. When I researched it I discovered that none of the original members are with the band. This a licensed band to use their names and sing their songs.

I bought their Greatest Hits album instead!

I tried to make Sunday a bit of a quiet day for me as well. Life has been a bit complicated and also stressful, and I needed the time to regroup. Did I find that? Not really. In fact I’ve been feeling very tired and wrung out!

I guess this tells me I need an early bedtime tonight (Sunday).

Happy Monday Everyone!

Masterpieces or Disasters

Last night I made this great meal. I sauteed onion, peppers and mushrooms, cooked some chicken, and served it with boiled California New Potatoes (my favorite!), and corn on the cob. The meal was stupendous, and best of all, it was so easy. I hardly gave it a thought.

Tonight, not so much. I had a meatloaf in the freezer that I took out and thawed, potato salad (okay, that was good) and green beans. The meatloaf was just terrible!

Hubby didn’t complain, but I sure did. Being on Weight Watchers means eating meals and enjoying them. This meal tonight was not enjoyable at all (except the potato salad!)

Now I am thinking about tomorrow night and what I can make for dinner then. Will it be an easily produced masterpiece or a hard fought disaster?

Stay tuned!

What I Did This Past Weekend

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Our host is Gattina. Come join us and tell us what YOU did this past weekend! After all, you never know when you will need an alibi!

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Oh, what a wonderful weekend it was! With the celebration of Savannah’s first birthday,

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to my nephew and his wife’s delivery of healthy twin boys, to record breaking heat, and a wild thunderstorm, it is a weekend I will not soon forget!

I was even surprised by Savannah’s ability to walk! She is very nearly running around! Here is a short clip showing her walk/running to her Grandpa Arthur.

Sunday began our official heatwave, with temperatures well over ninety degrees. However late in the afternoon on Sunday, a storm moved in with high winds, and a little thunder and lightening, helping to drop the temperatures in the state.

Greta helped me put the lines out for me pea plants which are just now sprouting! It looks to me like we will have a fine pea crop this year!

The peas I planted those two days before the beans, which have not yet sprouted. I’ve been waiting to re-plant the seedlings due to the extreme heat. Hopefully sometime this week.

Yes Greta “helped” by bringing me her ball and insisting I throw it for her. Fun was had by both of us! She was one hot-dog when we came in though. I couldn’t get her to drink, but gave her ice cubes to chew. That worked like a charm!

I hope you all had as great a weekend as I did!

Happy Monday everyone!