Category: My Life

Saturday was a crazy day for us. It started by getting up early and bringing Fritz to the Humane Society for his Rabies Vaccine. We got there a little late, which meant that we were in the middle of about 50 dogs and cats standing outside in the cold wind!

After a few minutes of wind related pain, I begged to come inside, and looking at my poor face, they allowed me to come in and wait. Fritz and Hubby had to wait outside until it was their turn.

As always happens, Fritz becomes the center of attention. He is beautiful, sweet and likes to charm the ladies!

He got his shot and we left to come home, where I tossed a few things in a bag and headed to see Nataliya to get my hair done. I love the way she colored my hair, and she carefully shaped it too. I feel so much better knowing that at the very least my hair looks good!

I drove home and a beautiful bouquet of flowers was just being delivered! They were from my Mom and Sister, Melodie in honor of Hubby’s and my 25th wedding anniversary, which is on Tuesday.

I came inside, made a small snack of tea and popcorn, and then fell asleep in my chair with the three dackels.

Dinner was an easy meal. Hamburger Helper and a salad, and now I’m just waiting for the day to end so I can go to bed. I am just beat.

But as tired as I am, I am happy. I got so much done! Yay for fresh hair styles and colors!

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking in the last couple of weeks about who I think I am. I finally had to admit that I do like the way I have always looked, and found facing myself in the mirror fairly easy to do. (It was better when I was in my twenties, but heck…)

Now I am faced (no pun intended) with having a new face to look at each day.

After my car accident I had a few scars on my face that eventually faded. I had plastic surgery on my ear, because it was nearly torn off in that accident. But in the end, this new face was something I got used to.

When I had detached retinas I found I could no longer wear my contact lenses, and I got used to wearing glasses instead.

After all, it’s more important to be able to see to live your life.

Now I will have to learn to live with a new nose. I’m guessing it will not be like my old one, and that’s okay. I think eventually your forget what once was and find that you accept the new normal.

After all, I’m still me inside here. I’m still the Maribeth that I have always been. Just the old nose will have changed.

This is me at age three. Then the next one is from Christmas. Soon we will have the after. I can hardly wait to see it.

Tuesday morning I got a call letting me know that my next plastic surgery has been delayed a week. So instead of being operated on on April 16th, I will be operated on the following week, April 23rd!

I am just so disappointed and sick about it. I’ve literally been hiding out, not going anywhere, or seeing anyone due to my freakish looks. I keep wondering what I will look like when all is said and done, and now I need to go another week before I can find out!

So here I sit. In a small puddle of tears, feeling very sorry for myself.

I wonder if doctors realize how horrible it is for people to go around looking like this?

People have said I’ve been brave about going through all of this. I don’t feel very brave right now. I feel very much like I am falling apart.

Our host is Gattina. Come join us and tell us what YOU did this past weekend! After all, you never know when you will need an alibi!

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I had hoped to be feeling more full of life and less yucky by now, but each time I look in the mirror, it makes me want to weep!

Okay, I admit it, I’m vane. I never thought I was, but apparently I am. Between my face looking like a chainsaw made road map, and my hair lying limp and un-blown dry, I really am feeling UGLY!

There I have said it. UGLY!

Feeling like this has made me extremely unproductive. About the only things I have gotten done have been meals, clean up after and yes, a much enjoyed shower.

Aside from that I’ve watched Anthony Bourdain, back to back episodes and marathon reruns of NCIS.

Our Easter dinner was a wonderful plump turkey that I bought at Thanksgiving and froze. The smell in our house right now is warm, delicious and definitely as if it was Thanksgiving all over again. I opted for the turkey for two reasons. 1. I can use leftover turkey to make a turkey pot pie and turkey soup to freeze. and 2. It helped make a lot more room in my freezer chest.

So aside from watching TV, doing a little cooking, I’ve really kept a very low profile. Probably a good thing.

And Happy April 1st! I cannot believe that is already April! Spring is here!

Okay, things are pretty weird here on my face. You all know that currently I am wearing my forehead on my nose, in an attempt to graft the skin from up there to down here.

It looks a little hinky because they left the skin attached to my brow area, so the graft has the best possible chance of growing onto my nose.

Hubby says it gives me the nose the shape of a Klingon! And worst of all is, he is probably right!

Okay, back to all the weirdness. Because the skin on my nose is really from my forehead, and still hooked up blood and nerve wise, when I put the salve on the tip of my nose to help the graft heal, I feel it on my forehead.

Yes, you read that right. I touch my nose and feel it on my forehead! Isn’t that cool?

I am still trying to figure out how I will look in the end, but I really can’t say. I’m thinking this could be life changing. I could end up with a great nose, and now with my forehead being wrinkle free, well it’s almost like getting a facelift thrown in for nothing!

There are all sorts of bright spots in this whole nose cancer thing! At least the touching my nose and feeling the forehead trick is keeping me occupied for the time being!

And…here we go!

1. If I could go anywhere on a road trip, I’d go to Alaska. Been thinking about how much fun this would be..
2. Cruelty to children and animals is something I don’t understand.
3. Easter makes me think of all the family gatherings we had over the years. So many of my dear family have passed now, but their memories linger on…
4. Quiet music and a good book (are) is the best way (s) to relax!
5. It looks like Spring will never get here.
6. Apples,l carrots, or cheese (are) is one of my favorite healthy snacks.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to reading more of my Anthony Bourdain book on Kindle (Using the super large font size), tomorrow my plans include watching a movie or two and Sunday, I want to cook a turkey for Hubby and me for Easter!