Lately I’ve been going through a dry spot. It’s kinda that time of year, I’m feeling the loss of my daughter, and so much has changed in the perception I have in viewing myself.
All my life I saw myself looking the same as I always have. I may have gotten gray over the years, but a good dye job took care of that.
Then last year I had the facial cancer, gained quite a bit of weight and found I no longer knew this stranger in the mirror. I really have felt lost.
Add to this the fact that I spent most of last winter sick with high fevers, chills and desperately ill. That didn’t help at all.
Anyway, Last week I went back to Weight Watchers, and I am trying to get myself together. Lose the weight, get my face looking as good as I can.
I also think that I need to concentrate on the positive. All the good things in my life. I also need to stop thinking about the personal vanities that bother me. Hubby, Mandy and Savannah love me, no matter how my face looks. (And really, my face looks okay, just not the same as it did).
You are an incredibly beautiful woman: spiritually and externally. Live for the good things in your life and remember how much many of us love you. Try to be happy and enjoy life – Katie would have wanted that for you as do we all. Love you. Carol
Sometimes just recognizing the feelings and thoughts is enough. And sometimes seeing ourselves differently gives a new perspective, not bad, not good, just new. You are one of my longest time friends, even though we rarely see each other. I so admire the way you share your feelings and thoughts and loves and family so openly and so honestly. Your ability to keep seeing what is beautiful in life shines Katie’s light in a way that has so many of us remembering her right along with you. And your way of sharing your sadness, always with gratitude for having had her with you does too. Give yourself some of that compassion and kindness that you give to so many others. You deserve it. xxoo Michele
Don’t worry about your face, it looks very good ! My face got wrinkles in the last year, but that’s life ! Look on the bright side of live (lalala) !