Lately I’ve been going through a dry spot. It’s kinda that time of year, I’m feeling the loss of my daughter, and so much has changed in the perception I have in viewing myself.
All my life I saw myself looking the same as I always have. I may have gotten gray over the years, but a good dye job took care of that.
Then last year I had the facial cancer, gained quite a bit of weight and found I no longer knew this stranger in the mirror. I really have felt lost.
Add to this the fact that I spent most of last winter sick with high fevers, chills and desperately ill. That didn’t help at all.
Anyway, Last week I went back to Weight Watchers, and I am trying to get myself together. Lose the weight, get my face looking as good as I can.
I also think that I need to concentrate on the positive. All the good things in my life. I also need to stop thinking about the personal vanities that bother me. Hubby, Mandy and Savannah love me, no matter how my face looks. (And really, my face looks okay, just not the same as it did).