People think that the last lucid moments in life will somehow be prophetic. Maybe some are. But that last time Jack and I were just happily living out life was lovely for me.
I made the coffee, and upon handing him a fresh cup, he exclaimed that it was really good that morning. He said he felt good. Good and hungry. He wanted a McDonalds Big Breakfast.
After exacting a promise from him that he would not get out of his chair while I drove the three minutes to Mcdonald’s and back, I, still in my pajamas, went off to pick up my drive-through breakfasts.
I arrived back home and fixed his tray table with his food. He was quite happy and started to put the strawberry jam on his biscuit.
As I ate my breakfast, Jack sort of slumped to the left. I thought Lili and Heidi might be getting spoiled, and I asked Jack if he was feeding them. There was no answer.
It was at that moment that I realized that Jack had gone. Thirty-five years of marriage and 85 years in his life.
He lingered from that day, July 3rd, until July 6th. He never woke up. He never opened those beautiful blue eyes. The machines made noises, but I knew he was gone.
Ah. The last 35+ years have gone by so fast. I look over, and I see your empty chair. It’s only been a few days, and it seems so long since we had our lazy morning coffee chats. Rest well, Jack.